Really? Oprah?

I have never been a fan of Oprah Winfrey. She's annoyed me...a lot. But occasionally, I'll see a commercial for an upcoming episode with an interesting topic, and I'll TiVo it.

Today was one of those topics.

I had seen the commercial last night that today's episod was going to be "the biggest weight loss episode EVER!!", so I thought "Meh, I'll DVR it - it should be interesting".

I just finished watching it - it was awesome. Kind of a retrospective, but some really good stories - including a 9 year old girl who has lost 50lbs, who reminded me so much of myself as a little girl. A woman who has lost almost 400lbs, and 100 audience members who each lost over 100lbs. Amazing.

Now, other than the off chance that I liked an Oprah episode, today was also a big eye opener in another way.

I live in NW Indiana, about 5-10 miles from Lake Michigan. Our weather changes as often as most people change their underwear. Monday morning, I woke up freezing...today it was 93. Insanity.

Because it was so hot today, it was also humid (thank you, Lake Michigan). I retain water like no other in the humidity. Today was the worst of the worst. Thank God I had taken my wedding ring and engagement ring off before bed on Monday night - if I had left them on today, the would have cut the circulation off my ring finger...I'm sure of it. My feet looked like cartoon feet - huge oval blobs with smaller blobs for toes. My ankles disappeared, and my kness feel like I'm 70 - not 32.

I didn't start retaining water until I became hypertensive. I'm hypertensive because of my weight.

I am in pain constantly...my legs, hips, and especially knees aren't going to be able to take much more. If my bones and ankles hurt this bad - I can't even IMAGINE what must be happening to my organs. If that isn't a good enough reason to get this damn weight off...then I don't know what is.

More changes...

My husband and I have decided to separate for a while. I am going to go live with my parents and focus on myself.

We are not divorcing, and we plan on seeing each other. But living together is not in our best interests right now. We both have a lot of things to work out before we can be together again.

Thank you all for understanding if it is a few days before I update again.

Life Changes

So it has been a while since I posted.

I am not going to be going back to school right now for nursing. Although I was accepted, and even met with my advisor, I have a balance at the school, and once that is paid off, then I can go there. I am checking in to some online courses at a different school for health care administration, so at the very least I will have a Bachelor's degree. Not having a degree is not helping my job search.

I am still not employed full time. I do have an interview on Tuesday for a receptionist position, and I am now selling Avon. (If you interested in buying Avon products from me - contact me at kpolster1@gmail.com. I do have an online store if you are not local to me but still want to purchase products.)

The house we live in is being torn down. We got the official letter on April 19. We have to be out by noon on June 1st. We have applied for temporary housing with the county, and we have a sort-of lead on a place where we may be able to work out some work-for-rent type situation. Right now, we have to be out in 30 days - and have nowhere to go.

In the midst of all of this, I have abandoned my weight loss efforts. I am going back to counting calories on MyFitnessPal.com (my user name is kpolster79 if you want to friend me there), but until my life is a tad more stable (i.e. I have a job and am not on the verge of being homeless), I will not be making a completely conscious effort to lose weight.

I want to thank everyone who reads this blog for being patient with my sporadic updates. I hope my next update is a much happier one.