An AMAZING day!

Today was the big inspection day. I got up early, and cleaned my butt off until about an hour before the inspector got here. He was here about 30 seconds, but it's nice to have a clean house again.

Now, on to the awesome news

1. I got accepted for re-entry into the local community college...I start on my Associate's degree in Nursing on June 6.

2. I have an interview on Tuesday for a billing company in New Lenox, IL. I spoke with the owner of the company today, and she wants to meet me. It's a bit of a drive (slightly over an hour), but if the money is right, it's worth it.

3. The house we live in is not going to be torn down. Actually, the opposite is happening. They are remodeling both apartments, starting with downstairs. When that one is done, we will move downstairs, and they will remodel up here. The office for the storage facility (which is in the downstairs unit right now) is being relocated to a new building that they broke ground on today.

3 awesome things in one day.

Breakfast

None

Lunch

Turkey sandwich on wheat w/dijon mustard

2 mini cupcakes

12 oz Coke Zero

Dinner

Personal sized pizza w/mushrooms & onion

6 potato wedges

12 oz Coke Zero

Late Snack

2 mini cupcakes

I earned almost 300 cals cleaning, and I'm going to bed with 939 cal left. I know it's kind of a lot, but I don't feel like eating more. It was a good day overall, and I am very, very happy.

Perhaps TMI for some *you've been warned*

Today was a long day.

We're trying to get some assistance with our rent, since my husband and I are both unemployed. Yesterday, we went to the township trustee's office. What a nightmare. It must be some sort of rule that you have to be rude, insensitive, and have a superiority complex to work for a government organization. The woman who did our intake interview was just unnecessarily mean.

Anyhow, in order to get the assistance, we have to have an inspector come to our house. So I have been cleaning a good part of today. Plus I went and did laundry, and I babysat. Which is a lot of stuff in and of itself for me...but on top of it, I got my period.

I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), due to my weight and insulin resistance. Because of the PCOS, my periods are irregular (although the last 3 months, it's been pretty consistent). Sometimes it's 28 days between them, sometimes it can be up to 45 days between them. At any rate, when it comes, it wipes me out. I get nasty cramps, bloating, fatigue, and it's really heavy. It sucks.

So to make long story short - it's 10:30pm and I haven't eaten dinner, and I'm not sure if I want to. But I have meds to take, so I NEED to. Dinner on today's menu is what I'm planning on eating after I finish posting so I can take my meds and go to bed.

Breakfast

Turkey Bacon, Egg, & Cheese on a bagel
1c Hash browns
16 oz Orange juice

Lunch

8 chicken nuggets
25 French fries
12 oz Diet Pepsi

Dinner

Turkey sandwich on wheat with 1/2 Tbsp light mayo & 1 tsp dijon mustard
1c grapes
1 mini vanilla cupcake
20oz Diet Mountain Dew

At the end of the day, I went over by 68 cal...but I did do some walking around/activity while I was with the kids, and of course while cleaning. I probably didn't give myself enough credit for that while logging exercise, but it's ok.

Why do I do this?

If I had the answer to that question, I wouldn't be almost 200lbs overweight.

I binged today. Badly. To the point that I am not comfortable giving the details. I'm sure there will be a few people who call me out on it, but oh well. I will just say it was ugly, and although I wound up only being 183 calories over for the day - I still feel like I should be in a pasture somewhere saying "Moo".

I have decided that wen I get a job (hopefully soon), I am going to buy a set of pedals that go on the floor for when I watch TV. They're only like $20, but with our financial issues at present, they might as well be $1,000. Right now I can only walk for a few minutes at a time before my knees and back hurt - which is both sad and embarrassing.

I think I will be adding a few tickers to my blog - my pounds lost from MFP, days binge free, and days at or below my calorie allowance. Sometimes seeing my goals as I achieve them motivates me even more.

It's Biggest Loser time, and although my favorite (Courtney) is gone, the show is still really motivational. Hope you all had a good Tuesday. Tomorrow is a new day. :)

I was a slacker yesterday.

So here is my menu:

Breakfast

None

Lunch

1 1/2 c goulash
12 oz Diet Ginger Ale
1 90 Cal Fit & Active Honey Nut Granola Bar

Afternoon Snack

Lemon

Dinner

2 Egg & Cheese Sandwiches (Honey Wheat english muffin, 1/2 c egg substitute, 3 slices American cheese)
12 oz Diet Ginger Ale

Late Night Snack

Hamburger
French fries (baked at home)
12 oz Coke

I went to bed with 341 cals left for the day.

I think this is manageable....

So, I had a pretty good day. I'm burnt to a crisp...but otherwise good. :) The hubby and I just had a conversation. He wants to lose weight, too. Today, he tried on a pair of jeans - and they were too small. He wants to lose weight. I told him I would help him. And I did. At dinner, I made him the EXACT same plate as me. Normally, he would complain. "It's not enough food", "I'm still hungry"...etc., etc. I didn't tell him what I did - I just brought him a plate. We ate, and he said "Wow, I'm full. Thanks honey." That's when I told him I measured out his plate. He was shocked - but it kind of mad him see that measuring out things and watching portions isn't as hard as I sometimes make it out to be. Oh - and that it IS enough food. I told him I am more than willing to make him the same thing I eat at every meal. No problem. But I cannot and will not babysit his snacking. I told him he has to log his own calories, and watch his own snacks. He seems open to it, and hopefully he will stick to it. I need the accountability. Speaking of...here's what I ate today.
Breakfast

None

Lunch

1c goulash (ground beef, pasta, sauce) w/1 Tbsp shredded parmesan cheese
2c salad w/2 Tbsp light italian dressing & 1 Tbsp shredded parmesan cheese
12oz Pepsi

Afternoon Snack

1c goulash
1 wheat English muffin w/2 tsp margarine & a sprinkle of garlic powder
12oz Pepsi

Dinner

8oz Shake N Bake Pork Chop
1c Cheesy Bacon Potatoes
1c green beans w/ 1/2 tsp margarine
24oz Crystal Light Lemonade

Evening Snack (and birthday treat)

DQ Buster Bar (yum!)

I ended the day with 206 cals left over. I think I did pretty well. :) I have a job interview tomorrow morning at 9:30, so I need to be up at 7 to get ready. Goodnight.

Happy Birthday to Me

One of my all-time favorite celebrities, RuPaul has a saying: "If you can't love yourself, how in the hell are you gonna love somebody else?"

Sometimes the best advice DOES come from a drag queen.

I am 32 years old today. Today is the day I really make an effort to get my shit together.

I applied to a few schools last week for nursing. I am having issues getting transcripts from my previous school where I got my Medical Assisting certificate in 2002. They say I owe them money. I beg to differ. When I got the news, I was pretty upset about the possibility of this stopping my plans of going back to school. I've had a few days to think about it, and I am not going to let this stop me. There is no reason that it should. I will go up to that school and raise hell in the registrar's office, if need be.

Now, I know this blog is primarily supposed to be about my weight loss journey. And I am getting to that.

Since I have been unemployed (about 2 months now), I have gained close to 20lbs. Most of this is water from either not having my meds to take, or just not taking them. Yes, I know this is bad...I'm sure my BP is up from me swelling like a balloon.

So here is what I am going to be doing:

1. Starting tomorrow, I will be taking all the meds I have that I am supposed to be taking. And I'm adding in an OTC water pill, cause I'm sure ALOT of this weight is water.

2. I am going to log every single bite of food and every single drop I drink.

3. I am going to try to move more.

#3 may be the hardest thing for me to do. I'm 330.4lbs right now. It hurts to get up out of a chair or out of bed. I have 20 stairs to get up into my apartment. Yesterday, during our garage sale, I limited my liquid intake cause it hurt too much to get up and down the stairs. I am now one of those women I used to see at Walmart and think "At least I'm not THAT big". Well, I am now.

I will also be posting current pictures for "before" pics, and posting my menus daily, both here and on myfitnesspal.com.

So, happy birthday to me - this year, I'm giving myself my life back so maybe I can finally love myself enough to love others like I know I should.